Mother's day, not a great day

Mother's day

Not a great day

Not for me anyway

I miss my mummy

What she might have been

But wasn't and still can't be

And that hurts

Will always hurt

A deep wound in my heart

And that's not all

Then there's the years

Of not being a mum tears

Of hating the day

And what it meant

And what I wasn't sent

Until one day

I became a mum

But not for long

Suddenly mum day

Brought a new stain

Of loss and endless pain

No child in arms

Was I really a mum?

I wished to feel numb

Then Rachel came

And the joy wiped pain

For she and love are the same

And this day

For some time was OK

But the memories still play

So yes, it's still hard

Though I adore her card

And she makes me so proud

But there's pain

Always will be

On this day epecially

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