Monday, 30 December 2013


Two thousand and thirteen
What a crazy year it's been
Full of ups as well as downs
Lots of smiles and a few frowns
In this verse I do recall
The year that's gone once and for all

Cold and bright
Change of meds
Brought me fright
Didn't know
What would be
Had no choice
But wait and see
Every day
Took in turn
Would I fold
Or could I learn?

February challenged me
With overwhelming anxiety
Depression lifted, that was great
But fear it had me in a state
Specialists said I had to cope
Only prayer gave me hope

March brought sun
And determination
I made a plan
But needed patience
It came along with
Special assistance
To help my journey
And remove resistance

April saw a breakthrough come
A break away made me feel young
Full of hope of what could be
We tackled it as a family

May saw me
On my feet
Walking again
Along the street
Fear was there
Not yet gone
Hope gave strength
To keep moving on

June saw smiles
And celebrations
I might survive
With medications
It wouldn't be
An easy ride
But I wasn't alone
With friends beside
Again I knew
What had been hidden
Life's a horse
It needs to be ridden

July was hot, a true heat wave
How we enjoyed those longer days
Especially since, at last I felt
Much more like my real self
Every day I woke up well
Felt like emerging from my shell

Into August
This all continued
Though sometimes
I had a high mood
So much better
Than falling flat
Nothing could be
Worse than that
Made the best
Of the energy
Went to Europe
Friends to see

Back to specialist in September
Asked about mood, as I remember
Suggested that we "tone it down"
This received a simple frown
Instead agreed to watch and learn
Mindful of any low return

October was a tricky one
Very pleased when it was done
Had to get a grip on workload
Better than burnout after overload
Balance is as balance does
Keep my mind from gaining fuzz
Getting rest a useful tool
My new number seven rule

November saw anxiety raised
As the diary became quite crazed
Had to sort it out quite quick
Managed it, almost slick
Only thing that slipped the net
Was getting cats to the vet

December, well it's always manic
But this year there wasn't panic
Everything was fully enjoyed
Sang the carols over joyed
Of course exhaustion did result
But I bounced without a catapult
Think I'm learning, slowly yes
At least I can reflect, with jest

This is the year
That now is done
Would I repeat
This specific one?
Yes, and no
I'm not quite sure
I'd never close
A single door
But for all I've learned
And that is much
I'd prefer to avoid
The pain I've touched
Would I change it?
In many ways
Especially the
Harder days
But then again
They give me truth
God will take that
It'll have a use

And as for what I'll take with me
That is knowing what me I'll be
How I tick
What I need
When to rest
When to lead
Where I'm needed
Where I'm not
What I've got
(I've got a lot)
What is sane
Does it matter?
By God's grace
We're all in tatters

This is the year
That has now gone
That is the year
I'll build upon
This is the year
Of heaven and hell
This is the year
I nearly fell
This is the year
I learned to crawl
This is the year
I stood up tall
This is the year
Held by a net
This is the year
I'll never forget

If YOU read this and understand
Take my thanks and let it land
Without your help in many ways
I'd have reached the end of days
Thank you for your company
Thanks most for letting me be me!

Tuesday, 17 December 2013

The first christmas day

Many years ago
In a town called Nazareth
A young girl called Mary was praying

An angel appeared
In the sky above her head
And this is what the angel was saying

"Fear not Mary
Do not be afraid
You're going to have a baby boy

God has chosen you
To be the baby's mum
He'll fill the world with love and joy!"

Soon it was time
For the baby to be born
But they had to go to Bethlehem

They packed up their things
Loaded up a donkey
You'll never guess what happened then

They knocked on the doors
Of every single inn
But each said there wasn't any room

At last they did find
A stable that was free
And THAT is where Jesus was born

On a hill side
Shepherds guarding sheep
Saw a bright light appear in the sky

"Fear not" they heard
From angels over head
"A saviour has been born this night"

They followed from the hill
Into Bethlehem town
To the stable where Jesus did lie

They knelt down in awe
Worshipping the baby boy
They knew a better time was nigh

Far far away
Wise men watching stars
Saw something new that was GREAT

"A king has been born
We must go visit him
Come on, hurry, we're going to be late"

They found little Jesus
An ordinary boy
But they knew he was actually a king

They gave him three gifts
Gold, Frankincense and Myrrh
The greatest gifts, worth everything

This is my tale
Of the first christmas day
I hope you like what I have done

Jesus is love
Born for ALL of us
His joy is for us all, every one.

(c) Emma Major

Tuesday, 10 December 2013

Sid is home

Sid is home
Adventure done
Tired and hungry
But safe and sound

A mile away
Perhaps a bit more
He turned up at
A stangers door

Looking sad
He caught their eye
They took him in
They fed him pie*

When he didn't leave
They phoned their vet
Who said he sounded
Like our lost pet

They rang me up
Told me all about
The cat they found
I tried not to shout (with joy)

The joy I felt
Was all consuming
But nothing like what
I felt when I saw him

Now he's home
Back here at last
My fears unfounded
What's done is past

But from now on
We'll keep an eye
Make sure he's safe
With no wandering eye

* actually it was dog food but that didn't rhyme :)

Where are you Sid? I miss you boy

Where are you Sid? I miss you boy
My baby for so long
Thirteen years have been a joy
I miss you now you're gone

Should I keep on hoping
Or accept that you are gone?
The unknowing is the worst
Giving up feels so wrong

But in my heart I do not think
I'll hold you ever again
Please prove me wrong and walk back in
It'll take away this pain

Sid where are you?

Sid where are you? we wish we knew
We miss you oh so much
Your ever presence round our feet
Your endless stash of love

We miss your purr, your meow too
You never go like this
Our hearts are heavy with the pain
We keep filling your dish

We can't give up, we still have hope
But day by day it fades
As freezing fog rolls through the night
And hours turn into days

Are you trapped? or sick somewhere?
Or has your time run out?
We wish we knew, could hold you close
Instead we're left with doubt

If you hear us please cry out
We long to hold you tight
We'll help you heal or hold you close
We'll do whatever's right.