Ministry through food
I am today facing ministry through food. I have 50 christingles to prepare and then need to make sure that 200 carol service attendees (estimated obviously) will have mulled wine, OJ and mince pies afterwards.
There are a number of issues I am struggling with about this.
1. I have to admit to feeling this isn't really ministry. In my head I know it is, it's pure mission to the community. But the ego-driven bit of me says it's a menial job. So what's that about? I have huge admiration for the many lovely church people who organise the food for church events, never think it's menial and share how much I see this as God's work. And this year they're all unavailable and so I volunteered to take the role. My choice. My decision. But it doesn't feel like ministry somehow. Not yet, although I know it will when I have the honour of sharing food and drink with the community.
And I think the main reason for this is .....
2. I have an eating disorder. This is not something I have 'said' out loud online before. But I am learning that I am called by God just as I am, including as someone for whom food is a challenge. And He uses me through this, I have been able to walk alongside a young girl suffering with anorexia and her parents. So it is time I fessed up and said "yes, I have an eating disorder, and God loves me anyway and calls me anyway.".
I think this is why this food ministry is difficult for me, because food flips from being my best friend to my worst enemy. But today and tomorrow it will be ministry to the community, a way of allowing me to serve others and speak to others in a relaxed way.
Thank you Lord for helping me share this and supporting me through this. Amen.