Feelings

This was written for the letter F on my a to z of babyloss.

So many feelings
Stomping through my heart
Not taking trouble
To find out I'm falling apart

Some of them are happy
They make me feel much worse
How can I be happy
When I will never nurse

Most of them are sad
With tears chasing behind
Some of them are angry
Making my teeth grid

Some are confused
Can't even give them a name
Others I can't tell you
They're wrapped up in my shame

I'll tell you that I'm ok
That it's better day by day
But if you listen closely
You'll ignore what I say

My feelings still are stomping
Over everything I see
I hear that I'll recover
But right now please let me be.