I don't like being ill,
I'm not a good patient.
It's the loneliness and lack of energy and just being stuck at home.
But mostly because it reminds me how I feel when I'm in a depressive episode and it scares me; it's the fear that I could end up back there and that's just the worst thought ever.
At least the sun's shining so I can see blue sky, today I'm holding onto that glimmer of joy.